I hate myself for forgetting my Grandpa's birthday. My mum told me I only forgot because my grandparents were on holidays in Melbourne & that I was just too busy. But even so, I should've remembered. Ultra frustrated at myself, yesterday night I spent like 15 minutes punching my bedframe until my knuckles hurt ==" Now I regret it because my knuckles still hurt... I apologised but I still I think he would've been upset deep down ): && I'm so mad at myself because he does everything for me. Like he makes me afternoon tea, he gives me money randomly, he does my FUCKING chores when i'm at school. He's old, & he still does my chores, i tell him, I can do them & that he shouldn't do them cuz it's tedious... taking the bins in. But he does them anyway, I feel so bad... I won't be able to forgive myself.